Jessica Girado

Yesterday was one of the toughest days I have been through in a while. Some personal things happened in the morning (don’t get crazy thinking it’s about me and michael, it’s not. Really.) But I can tell you that one thing had to do with us financially.

Having Emery has been the biggest blessing in Michael’s and my life. But it has been tough and one that has involved sacrifice. Don’t get me wrong. Even though we are in the situation we are in, I would not change it at all. Most of you know that I am a stay at home mom. So Michael is the only one working. I love being able to stay home with Emery. I cherish so much everything I experience with her. And I feel complete and satisfied in being a mom and a wife. Not many people can say that.

Anyway, I went to an interview on Thursday in a temp agency to see if I could work maybe 1 week out of the month. All we really need is one paycheck from me to be “OK” for the month. And I was ok with working, until last night. I guess it hit me. And it hit me hard that I will not spend that week with Emery. Most of you might think it’s silly. One week is nothing. Even Michael said, it’s ONE week. But you will never know what it is to leave your daughter in the care of someone else until you are a mother. If I work, I will feel like I’m being robbed. Someone else will look after Emery, play with her, feed her, soothe her, comfort her, stimulate her. And all that hurts me very much.

Hopefully I will be able to find something to do from home. God knows I want to stay home with my daughter. We don’t need much really. But what is needed, will help us a lot. I am also trying to focus on the favor business. I thank God he has given me a creative talent. And I do want to use it. But my focus has been Emery.

So my friends. Please pray for me. That God may provide something for me to do. And that I may finally start what I think I am good at.
I love you. And thank you!